Fitness trainer Amanda Kloots is giving an up-close and realistic look at what it is like watching her husband, Nick Cordero, spend the past three months in the hospital trying to recover from COVID-19.
"I had a hard day today. I cried all day basically," Kloots, who shares a 1-year-old son with Cordero, wrote Monday on Instagram. "I got mad today too."
"I got mad at God. I'm praying and I have people all over the world praying," wrote Kloots, who has shared her family's journey on Instagram with the hashtags #wakeupnick and #nickiswoke. "I said to my mom and dad, 'Why can't He throw us a bone. I'm sorry but I'm mad right now.' I felt bad right after my outburst, but it needed to come out."
Cordero, the Tony-nominated star of Broadway hits including "Bullets Over Broadway" and "Rock of Ages," has been on a ventilator and in the intensive care unit of Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles since early April, when he tested positive for COVID-19.
He has faced severe complications from the virus, including having his right leg amputated, battling multiple infections and suffering severe lung damage, according to Kloots, who was only able to start visiting Cordero in the hospital in late June due to the hospital's COVID-19 safety restrictions.
Cordero can move his jaw when he is alert and "interacts with this eyes" but is "profoundly weak," Kloots told her Instagram followers last week. He has also lost 65 pounds and will likely remain hospitalized for several more months.
When he is able to be discharged, according to Kloots, he will go to a rehabilitation facility for a year before finally coming home.
Cordero and Kloots moved from New York City to Los Angeles in late March, right before Cordero went to the hospital with what they originally thought was pneumonia. Kloots has since been taking care of their son, Elvis, and trying to find treatments and help for Cordero while also managing her fitness business.
"I broke big time today at home, at the hospital in front of doctors and while sitting next to Nick," she wrote Monday. "I couldn't keep it together."
Kloots went on to describe how she will bounce back and continue to stay positive, writing, "It's ok to cry, to get mad and say it's not fair. I will keep my faith and keep asking for miracles. I will put my armour back on and walk taller tomorrow. I will do the best I can do and make myself as big as I can."
"This, these 89 days now, have been tough," Kloots wrote. "I broke today. I'll be back tomorrow."