It's really incredible how Ali is able to keep her humor and wit, even as her body fails her. She next admits that she DM-ed a restaurant and even used her \"illness as a tactic\" in order to get a reservation.

\"I’m floored when I receive a reply from chef Rene Redzepi himself. Turns out that people respond when you tell them you’re dying of cancer,\" she quips.

But the young chef is also able to make sure to include the more heartbreaking aspects of what's to come like the napkin she keeps in her wallet, the one with names written on it for people she plans to reach out and make amends to.

\"I have to learn how to ask for forgiveness without expecting to receive it. It’s probably the most frightening thing I have ever had to do, and I’ve experienced some seriously terror-inducing moments,\" she writes.

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I just want to take a moment to thank each and every single person who has ever sent love my way. Here is another update/article about my life. Head to the link in my bio. This is my truth.

A post shared by Fatima Ali (@cheffati) on Oct 9, 2018 at 7:39am PDT

And even as she's enjoying \"knowing that I can finally live for myself, even if it’s just for a few more precious months,\" she admits that she's scared of what's to come.

\"I suspect I won’t last very long,\" she adds. \"There’s a faint feeling deep inside my gut like a rumble of passing air, ever expanding and filling slowly until, one day, I’ll pop.\"

Until that time comes, much like her first-class foray and her direct messages to elite restaurants, Ali is going to use each day she has left to \"experience something new.\"

\"I was always deathly afraid of being average in any way, and now I desperately wish to have a simple, uneventful life,\" she closes.

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