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Teigen addressed why she needed to have these moments captured.

\"I had asked my mom and John to take pictures, no matter how uncomfortable it was,\" she wrote. \"I explained to a very hesitant John that I needed them, and that I did NOT want to have to ever ask. That he just had to do it. He hated it. I could tell. It didn't make sense to him at the time. But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles. And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story.\"

\"I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos. How little I care that it's something you wouldn't have done,\" she continued. \"I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren't for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like.\"

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Since her ordeal, Teigen said she has received an outpouring of support from many on social media and thanked everyone for their kindness during these tough times. She said she was sharing her story in order to help her cope and move on.

\"All I know now is his ashes are in a small box, waiting to be put into the soil of a tree in our new home, the one we got with his room in mind,\" she continued. \"People say an experience like this creates a hole in your heart. A hole was certainly made, but it was filled with the love of something I loved so much. It doesn't feel empty, this space. It feels full.\"

\"I wrote this because I knew for me I needed to say something before I could move on from this and return back to life, so I truly thank you for allowing me to do so,\" said Teigen. \"Jack will always be loved, explained to our kids as existing in the wind and trees and the butterflies they see.\"

Teigen has never shied away from personal topics, having previously discussed her infertility treatments and her struggle with postpartum depression. Just as those revelations prompted others to talk about their own experiences, her forthcoming approach to her pregnancy loss is a \"gift for women,\" according to Dr. Nita Landry, an OBGYN in Los Angeles.

\"To a lot of women who never came forward and spoke about it, she's saying, 'It's OK to feel what I'm feeling. This is normal,'\" Landry said in September. \"Until we can have those open, honest conversations, a couple things will happen: No. 1, there will continue to be misinformation, and No. 2, women will continue to suffer in silence, which is unacceptable.\"

ABC News' Lesley Messer contributed to this report.

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